Whether it’s getting myself to feel the gravity of an encounter in a Dungeons and Dragons campaign or getting myself to dig deeper during training under the scorching heat of the sun, I always believe that there’s a fitting fight song for any situation.
And I generally like featuring songs in my blog because they tell people a lot about who I am. This week’s featured song is Rachel Platten’s Fight Song.
I actually got to hear this just a few days ago and it had this catchy tune.
My interpretation of it came just awhile ago as I did a tremendously difficult 3 x 20 minutes bike trainer session – I had to dig deeper for this because, while my strongest discipline would be biking, this challenged me because I don’t usually “pace”, instead, I just power it out.
“This is my FIGHT SONG
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song”
ANYWAY, this song played and as I was listening to the lyrics, I got to remember how far I came from. I saw my journey as a 285 pound broken boy of a man to a 190 pound boy of a man (less broken, adjusting to things) who constantly tests his mettle, tries to be a better person and get to know himself better too (while rolling dice). Ever since I made that choice to “improve” myself, a helluva lot of great things happened. But that doesn’t include bad ones.
First, my first-ever business crashed – it just died. I’ve made some poor choices with who to trust my money with and my lack of experience when it comes to government papers left me with almost nothing. Secondly, one of my closest friends severed his ties with me because he says I’ve developed this ego since I wasn’t able to visit or get in touch anymore – can’t blame him. I couldn’t reach out because at the time, I was struggling to make money for myself as a freelancer.
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Thirdly, since I was struggling with financial issues, I wasn’t able to provide for my family as much as I could back in the day. That caused a lot of conflict and, well, I’m just happy we’re already past that and our bills are now regularly being paid.
There were a lot of sacrifices I had to make and, ultimately, I learned a lot of lessons. I’m not going to lie: I cried. I never really thought I’d get that far and I never really thought I’d be able to dig deep as I could.
“Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes ‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me“
And I’m very thankful for it.
So to those who are potentially going through the same kind of struggles I went through (admittedly, some of them are a work in progress), remember, dig deep. You might be surprised how much fight you have in you.
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